@figur_coDear body, we haven’t always been the best of friends, sometimes we haven’t been friends at all. And as I stare at this photo, I wonder how we got here - all these years later - as strangers who know each other so intimately yet probably still don’t understand each other at all.
I don’t question your appearance anymore, I know other people do, but I see you every day. I know every lump, bump, curve and dimple that exists and ever. I’ve watched you grow and change, blossom and fade more times than I can count. I’ve asked you to be prettier, lose weight; and most of the time you don’t listen at all in fact you most nearly always do the opposite. It makes me mad at you... and then it makes me mad at me and wonder why I’d need to change anything about you.
We’ve been through a lot together you and I, from bouncing off trampolines to learning to ride a bike; learning to fall off a bike - to dance, to play tennis, to create music, to make love. And although I probably don’t give you enough credit, you’ve done a pretty great job at it all so far. Which leaves me wondering why we have to try so hard, to be friends? When did we ever stop.
Was it when I used to ride my bike around the streets with my friends? We’d pick frangipani flowers off the trees, and they’d talk about how much they weighed. I was always too scared to say a number out loud because it was so much higher than their numbers. Or was it when we overheard a man call us fat to his friends, but then I let him have you anyway because the fear of rejection over the way you looked was unbearable.
Looking back now, I’m sad for the way I felt about you for so long. I regret not protecting you more, not valuing you more, and not recognising that you held value no matter what you looked like or what other people thought of you. And while the road is long, life is short, and this photo of just you and me reminds me that their is beauty, and worth, and stories, in every single part of you. And while maybe the last 28 years have been a little rocky, I think maybe (with a little hard work) we could just be friends forever. @itskatejanmaree 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼